05 August 2010

Leaves are falling all around, It's time I was on my way..

Holy smokes.  I’ve sold some of my things on Ebay; we’re preparing to have a yard sale next weekend.  The three of us are planning to have a day or two this week to whip everything into shape, lay out some sort of tentative plan with regards to what everybody wants to see and where everybody wants to go.  The only concrete stop we have planned thus far is for October 30th and 31st — we just bought tickets for a two-night Umphrey’s McGee show  in Saint Louis, Missouri …  this is why one of the unnecessary items that I’m bringing is my bumblebee costume.  
Gus and I set up his tent today to see if the air mattress fits inside when inflated.  It does.  Welcome home!  Ha ha … I’m laughing, but it’s no joke … that tent will be our bona fide home, come September 1st.  It’s a bit overwhelming to think about how little alone time we’re all going to have.  I’m bringing ear plugs, for sure — we made a bit of a ground rule stating that if someone is using ear plugs and/or headphones, it means that they’d like to be alone unless it’s an emergency.  I think this is such a good idea … I really, really wish I had an iPod to bring so I could lose myself in music when needed.  Oh well.  See – there it is, creeping up inside of me – the want for material things!  It’s not what this is about.  Anyway … I’m just excited that I’ll be bringing a new sketchbook to journal and draw in.  I want to document all of this.
Anybody out ever done anything like this before?  Three of us are selling almost everything, packing up the car, and living out of it, with tents, for as long as possible.  Picking up work on the way.  I joined helpx.net.  Any other ideas?
Oh man!  This is terribly exciting, new, fresh, scary, and it seems more important than anything I’ve ever done before.  We are definitely heading west and I can’t believe I’m going to camp out in the desert.  I want to see as many animals as possible … catch fish and cook them over a fire … spend my days drawing and writing about what I see around me … sleep curled up with my lover in a tent in the middle of this big, big, beautiful world.  What is this going to show me about my nature, my human nature?  What does it mean to be human?  This grid — this social construction that we live in — I feel that it dulls my innate nature, makes me less human, kills my sense of wonder and newness … well, at least, I have a harder time maintaining those things in this sort of atmosphere.  Can’t blame what’s around me … but I can change my surroundings.  And I am!  Can’t wait to have actual exciting news and photos to share with everyone!

More and more there is this animal, looking out through my eyes
At all the traffic on the road to nowhere, at all the shiny stuff around to buy
At all the wires in the air, at all the people shopping for the same blank stare
At America the drastic, that isolated geographic, that’s become infested with millionaires
When you grow up surrounded by willful ignorance
You have to believe mercy has its own country, and that it’s round and borderless
And then you have to grow wings and rise above it all
Like there, where that hawk is circling above that strip mall
More and more there is this animal, looking out through my eyes
Seeing that animals only take from this world what they need to survive
Ask any eco-system: harm here is harm there, and there and there
And aggression begets aggression, it’s a very simple lessont hat long preceded any king of heaven
And there’s this brutal imperial power that my passport says I represent
But it will never represent where my heart lives, only vaguely where it went
-Ani DiFranco


  1. Want a place to stay in St. Louis?

  2. You might want to look at Couch Surfing & WWOOFing as options along the way.